It had to give. Born-and-bred Minnesotans can feel when it's time. That much moisture in the air just can’t hang there forever.
The time came this morning. 60 and 70 mph winds and horizontal rain — the rain didn't come down, it went by. The house creaked as I watched the storm swirl, the trees shed branches, garbage cans and recycling bins tumble down the street, the plants bend over nearly flat to the ground.
The Celtic harp sprang an A string with gusto during one particularly powerful wind gust.
I was just about to head to the basement (born-and-bred Minnesotans just know when it's time for this, too)...when it stopped. Calm and gentle rain. Which we needed. And then, mid-morning, the sun came out.
Around 11:00 a.m. my neighbor Ethel called to tell me it looked like a branch of my apple tree in the backyard had come down on her fence.
This is what I saw.
I stood there in the backyard and cried. I hate it when trees leave. And this one has sheltered the west side of my garden since I’ve lived here.
My nice Dad and brother came over that night and cut it down to haul away. I tried to make light of it all, joking with them and trying to impress my brother with my brute strength by lifting a section of trunk on my shoulder and heaving it into the trailer (and I think he was secretly impressed though he'd never admit it). There were a lot of brush-filled trailers heading through town to the compost site. Mine wasn’t the only tree that left in the storm.
But I’ll miss it. It’s like when you’re little and you lose a tooth and you can’t stop your tongue from going to the empty spot, feeling for it. I can’t even estimate the times I went to the backyard to look at the place it had been.
Right away people asked what I would replace my tree with. Somebody suggested planting a magnolia tree. Somebody else a weeping willow because they grow so fast. Then one genius suggested planting a money tree. Funnnny.
I don’t know yet. It still feels like the apple tree is there. I might just live with the space for a while. See what the emptiness says.
This space, however, was easy to fill.